Lost

Lately, I haven't been inspired. That may be a broad statement, but it's the best I got. I feel like everything I used to care about and value has gone straight to the gutter. Church has been a big let down for me lately. I go just about every Sunday yet it does hardly anything for me. At least not like it used to. What happened? I used to be all about Church on Sunday mornings! Now that desire to go is just gone. I try to pay attention to the sermon I really do. Halfway through it I find myself totally daydreaming about something else! its like come on Ariel!! are you serious right now? Like really...i don't understand. I pray all the time but I don't feel I put myself into the prayer. I just kind of do it to do it. Now that is not like what i used to be at all! Honestly......what the heck. As much as i hate it i don't even care to do anything about it. I am so confused. I think i just need to somehow be inspired again.

the soup

My head feels like a balloon ready to pop. My throat is about a millimeter wide. I tried swallowing a half a millimeter pill and it wouldn't go down. I keep getting these random occurring chest pains. My legs feel like jello. My eyes are watering like a faucet. My ears are clogged like a toilet with five pounds of toilet paper shoved in there. Ask me if i can hear you..... What?
Here's a little taste of what my life has been like for the past two days. Groggy. You expect me to come to school. Don't wanna.
But i have to because otherwise
1. I'll get 400 pounds of homework that i don't need.
2. I'll get another "unrecognized" absence.
NO THANKS!
sorry this post isn't very meaningful
its just the only thing on my mind right now.

crank dat, boi

crank that soulja boy
crank dat superman
crank dat robocop?
crank dat lion king
crank dat soulja gurl
crank dat dance remix
crank dat spongebob
crank dat spiderman
crank dat road runner
crank dat ice man
crank dat homeless man
crank dat forrest gump
crank dat batman
crank dat panda girls

crank dat 50 cent

OKAY I THINK THIS IS GETTING OUT OF HAND. SHUT UP
no one cares about what chu' gon' crank.
okay gangster?
k!

Zo' Bird

Zoe.

Four years old.

First cousin on my dads side.

Awe she is SO precious I just want to squeeze her.

Anyway..this past weekend I got to babysit my cousins. It was a blast. There are three little girls under the age of four. Ah! and they are absolute angels!! honestly I couldn't ask for more well-behaved little girls! now to zoe. She is the oldest out of the three, obviously. You can surely tell too! She takes care of the two other babies like a mother. When i was there, Sydney (two years old) was being kind of rough with the youngest, Besty. Zoe walks over and says, "Syd, now if you're going to play rough you might need to sit two mintues in a time out." You have to imagine a little four year old saying this! gah its cute! She always has to be the bigger person too. Like when I first got there Sydney started bawling her eyes out because she didn't want her mom to leave. I looked at Zoe and there she was, her eyes watering like crazy but not shedding a single tear, rubbing sydneys back trying to calm her. All because she knew she had to step up and set an example for Syd. haha I don't know......I just adore her (:

expect the best.

Yesterday, there was a huge halloween party at the Albert Lea Inn. It was a costume party, of course. I decided I wanted to go the day of. A friend and I had planned to go find some cheap lame costume that would get us by an hour or so before the party started. We went to Shopko first. No more adult costumes left. I figure okay we'll try walmart they'll most definitely have some costumes left. I mean, it IS walmart..bleh. I get there and all they have are big black robe type things and childrens costumes.. wow! screw that idea. I guess we just won't go. At first i was kind of bummed. I didn't want to miss out on anything!! That night turned out to be a great night though! probably better than it would have been if i did end up going to the party!! I stayed at my house and a friend came over. We hadn't hung out in forever before then and it was so much needed!! Gosh life is good (:

you do?

DO YOU?

do you ever wonder why the sky is blue?

Do you ever wonder how might we exist?

DO you ever wonder when is your day of departure?

DO You ever wonder what God has in store for you?

DO YOu ever wonder why our lives become more complicated as we get older?

DO YOU ever wonder how much you'll do?

DO YOU Ever wonder when will you find yourself?

DO YOU EVer wonder what your going to accomplish?

DO YOU EVEr wonder why we do what we do?

DO YOU EVER wonder how will this make me better?

DO YOU EVER Wonder when the world will end?

DO YOU EVER WOnder what your kids will be like?

DO YOU EVER WONder why you wonder?

DO YOU EVER WONDer how many times?

DO YOU EVER WONDEr when it will end?

DO YOU EVER WONDER what seems fair?

do you?
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