Lost

Lately, I haven't been inspired. That may be a broad statement, but it's the best I got. I feel like everything I used to care about and value has gone straight to the gutter. Church has been a big let down for me lately. I go just about every Sunday yet it does hardly anything for me. At least not like it used to. What happened? I used to be all about Church on Sunday mornings! Now that desire to go is just gone. I try to pay attention to the sermon I really do. Halfway through it I find myself totally daydreaming about something else! its like come on Ariel!! are you serious right now? Like really...i don't understand. I pray all the time but I don't feel I put myself into the prayer. I just kind of do it to do it. Now that is not like what i used to be at all! Honestly......what the heck. As much as i hate it i don't even care to do anything about it. I am so confused. I think i just need to somehow be inspired again.

the soup

My head feels like a balloon ready to pop. My throat is about a millimeter wide. I tried swallowing a half a millimeter pill and it wouldn't go down. I keep getting these random occurring chest pains. My legs feel like jello. My eyes are watering like a faucet. My ears are clogged like a toilet with five pounds of toilet paper shoved in there. Ask me if i can hear you..... What?
Here's a little taste of what my life has been like for the past two days. Groggy. You expect me to come to school. Don't wanna.
But i have to because otherwise
1. I'll get 400 pounds of homework that i don't need.
2. I'll get another "unrecognized" absence.
NO THANKS!
sorry this post isn't very meaningful
its just the only thing on my mind right now.

crank dat, boi

crank that soulja boy
crank dat superman
crank dat robocop?
crank dat lion king
crank dat soulja gurl
crank dat dance remix
crank dat spongebob
crank dat spiderman
crank dat road runner
crank dat ice man
crank dat homeless man
crank dat forrest gump
crank dat batman
crank dat panda girls

crank dat 50 cent

OKAY I THINK THIS IS GETTING OUT OF HAND. SHUT UP
no one cares about what chu' gon' crank.
okay gangster?
k!

Zo' Bird

Zoe.

Four years old.

First cousin on my dads side.

Awe she is SO precious I just want to squeeze her.

Anyway..this past weekend I got to babysit my cousins. It was a blast. There are three little girls under the age of four. Ah! and they are absolute angels!! honestly I couldn't ask for more well-behaved little girls! now to zoe. She is the oldest out of the three, obviously. You can surely tell too! She takes care of the two other babies like a mother. When i was there, Sydney (two years old) was being kind of rough with the youngest, Besty. Zoe walks over and says, "Syd, now if you're going to play rough you might need to sit two mintues in a time out." You have to imagine a little four year old saying this! gah its cute! She always has to be the bigger person too. Like when I first got there Sydney started bawling her eyes out because she didn't want her mom to leave. I looked at Zoe and there she was, her eyes watering like crazy but not shedding a single tear, rubbing sydneys back trying to calm her. All because she knew she had to step up and set an example for Syd. haha I don't know......I just adore her (:

expect the best.

Yesterday, there was a huge halloween party at the Albert Lea Inn. It was a costume party, of course. I decided I wanted to go the day of. A friend and I had planned to go find some cheap lame costume that would get us by an hour or so before the party started. We went to Shopko first. No more adult costumes left. I figure okay we'll try walmart they'll most definitely have some costumes left. I mean, it IS walmart..bleh. I get there and all they have are big black robe type things and childrens costumes.. wow! screw that idea. I guess we just won't go. At first i was kind of bummed. I didn't want to miss out on anything!! That night turned out to be a great night though! probably better than it would have been if i did end up going to the party!! I stayed at my house and a friend came over. We hadn't hung out in forever before then and it was so much needed!! Gosh life is good (:

you do?

DO YOU?

do you ever wonder why the sky is blue?

Do you ever wonder how might we exist?

DO you ever wonder when is your day of departure?

DO You ever wonder what God has in store for you?

DO YOu ever wonder why our lives become more complicated as we get older?

DO YOU ever wonder how much you'll do?

DO YOU Ever wonder when will you find yourself?

DO YOU EVer wonder what your going to accomplish?

DO YOU EVEr wonder why we do what we do?

DO YOU EVER wonder how will this make me better?

DO YOU EVER Wonder when the world will end?

DO YOU EVER WOnder what your kids will be like?

DO YOU EVER WONder why you wonder?

DO YOU EVER WONDer how many times?

DO YOU EVER WONDEr when it will end?

DO YOU EVER WONDER what seems fair?

do you?
[whattheheck?]

Trust.

Just the other day i was talking with my friend about how we thought her parents were too strict. If she wants to spend the night somewhere her parents need to talk to the parents of wherever she is staying. At the time i thought that is just stupid. you need to give your kids some freedom, let them learn from their own mistakes. There have been other instances where i thought her parents were being completely ridiculous. I mean she IS a good kid. and really if your a teen and you really want to do something like sex or drugs for example. You'll do it. no parent can hold you back from that. At least that is what i thought. All they can do is instill in you the values and teach you reasons for not doing those things. From there on its THEIR decision. So let your kid live a little. Let THEM be the smart one and make the good decision on their own. If they mess up, trust me, they will learn.

a little too wintery a little too soon

This weekend, I received an early birthday present from mother nature. I woke up Sunday morning before church and was pleasantly surprised that it was snowing. I couldn't have been happier! I absolutely love snow! Everything about it excites me, from the cool, crisp air to the abundant visions of white.
However, it feels a bit too early to be biding goodbye to the wonderful colors of fall. The thrills and costumes of Halloween haven't even been seen yet! I love snow to death but I was glad to see that it melted. I just don't think we're quite ready for the snow and all the comes with it yet. Hopefully the next time it comes, we'll be ready and excited for it! So goodbye snow...at least for now.

slackerrrrrrrrr

What to write about? again im lost on what to write about.
Im sure i can come up with zillions of topics.
but none of them seem write-worthy? bleh.
I don't feel like doing blogs anymore.
They are over-rated and add more stress to my life.
Yeah, they're easy......... whatever.
Don't wanna do em :)
but i spose i will..
Would this even count enough for my grade?

STATE '08!

WE are going to state! whooo! two years in a row? now that isn't expected from our little town! Today was the state banquet. There was this guy, from who knows where, who comes up to our table and says something along the lines of wow congrats Albert Lea you've come a long way to get all the way up here. At first i seen it as ooh how nice someone is noticing us and all we've done. :) then i look over and hear one of my teammates is completely pissed off and goes yeah uhm its our second year here!! woah! i did not see that one coming. What he said..was it really that offensive? Personally i don't think so. But i guess she did and she got the whole team going about it. anyway..WE'RE GOING TO STATE, AGAIN! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :) Im pumped!!!

Hi hi hello goodbye

Today was our last day of confirmation. I can't decide if im saddened by this or exhilarated.
This is a point in my life where things are about to change. My faith will be confirmed with the public and i get to journey off with it on my own now. Make decisions by myself. I'm no longer forced to go to church or confirmation. I choose to stick with it, though. I enjoy every bit of it and am excited to further it on my own (: Its almost like graduating, you're off on your own with it now. Thats what is exhilarating about it.

On the downside, confirmation was my get-away. It was somewhere i could go every Wednesday and just be with people who valued God just the same as i do. They were the people who helped encourage my belief. I just hope now with out it i don't fall short on things. Cause outside of church things are different/harder. Its much easier to lose yourself to worldly things. I just hope our confirmation class can stick together and still try to meet every once in a while. That will surely be missed otherwise.

RickyB.

Just the other day at practice I remember running after a ball that i kicked way over the net, while the rest of my teammates are huddled around the coach laughing and having a great time. That's when i realized, we aren't just some team. We are like a family. We bond like a family. We talk to each other like a family. Its almost hard to put into words what I'm trying to say. Like okay Last year; we made it to state(for the first time ever!!!!). Its not because we have the most skill in the world and are in the best shape of our lives. We just bond together and play as a team. Don't get me wrong we do have skill and fitness on our side, but thats not everything. Its truly knowing in your head, 'I'm going to accomplish something to make history' Thats our main objective is to just push forward with this. Set goals and accomplish them. I give Barnhill, our coach, a lot of credit for this. despite the fact that he's probably the most cooky guy you'll ever meet, he's truly an amazing coach. He inspires each one of us to fulfill our dreams. We did it as a team last year and we'll do it again this year! come on girls! seasons NOT over yet!

i just can't seem to write today............................

Friday was a blast. We had a huge bonfire for everyone in our grade. There were a lot more people there than i expected. It made me realize though, how many different groups we have. I didn't really know where to fit in exactly. There was so much commotion. It was overwhelming but i loved it! like you didn't know where to go. you felt like you might miss something. So there i was running around with my head cut off. After a while though i finally decided to just stick with one group and talk. After probably an hour of just swinging we all split up and headed to the basketball court to dance a little. That was fun i suppose. Then that moved to some rug bee(is that how you spell it?)/soccer. Blah Blah.....later a couple of us girls went to Taylors to spend the night. It was a good night. blah im done...........................................................

short and........sweet?

So just this past weekend I was in a wedding. It was fun for the most part. We got to get all dressed up and even ride in a limo. But, there was a catch. The reception was the day after. What the heck? Who does that? It was so annoying!!!!!!! We had to repeat the whole process of getting ready, which takes like three hours! ah! Then had to travel out of town, AGAIN, and take morrrrrrre pictures. uhhhhhhh no thanks. It's extremely stressful.. I'm so sick of being BUSY! ugh! thank god its over.

schmuck

Winter is coming soon and I'm so unbelievably excited!! I bet you've never heard that one before eh? Normally people get sort of depressed thinking about winter. Not me! (this year anyway) I've been so caught up lately, I literally want to pull out all of my hair! Homework, Confirmation, soccer, boyfriend, It's all so much to handle. But when winter rolls around bye bye soccer and confirmation. whoo! I'll finally get a chance to live a little, or at least i hope! don't get me wrong i love soccer and going to confirmation (honestly!) but it takes up so much of my life right now i'd just love to do away with them both!

typical yickity yak lah lah

Wouldn't you just love to hear about my lovely night, Friday!? okay so, homecoming! whoo funfunfun eh? nahh, not so much. Don't get me wrong it was fun. Just not "you'll remember till the day you die" kind of night. Anyway..here it goes. We get out of school early go to field day, watch powder-puff football, socialize with friends, ladidadidaa, then, practice??!!! uhm..no thanks! It's flippen homecoming NIGHT for crying out loud! We have never had a practice on homecoming! ahhh! but whatever..i'll get over it i guess. Went home showered, got ready for the game. We get there and there's no seats! ugh! I should have expected that though, when we show up at flippen 7:00, game time!! Then we end up losing homecoming.. what is that? i thought this was a guaranteed win! I don't know much about football but I do know we shouldn't have taken the risk of another touchdown. We should have just went for the field goal. who am i to talk though? I may think i know what im talking about but i probably dont. moving on.. after the game what did we do? uhhhhh, sat there attempted to saran wrap some kid(cody anderson) to a tree. didn't work out so swell. wasn't too exciting anyway.. blah blah i guess im being too much of a pessimist here but things just don't seem as fun as they used to.
I remember being in fifth grade and going to friday night football games, was fricken bomb! We would run all over, (didn't even watch the game, and didn't care) and i remember getting the rush of a lifetime!! i just felt so free and the stupid little things like getting a giant pixie stick made my night. whatever though, im done ranting. I'm off to bed, night! we'll see if this makes even the littlest bit of sense in the morning..... huh? :S

11:45 pm.

So I'm sitting here thinking about what to write about and still have no idea. We have to do these blogs every week for my journalism class, and me being to procrastinator I am, is just starting to write this fifteen minutes before it's due. I mean..this should be easy, pick a random topic and ramble on about it. right? or am i wrong? what is a blog anyway? some people are using it to tell the world what they think about, others are giving detailed stories about their everyday life. That's what gets me on what to write about. We read these newspaper articles and listen to interviews in class. Does that mean we report on the world like a journalist? or is this just a way of getting us to practice writing in general? well who knows.. I s'pose i'll just leave it at that?

Change

Change is a weird concept if you think about it. Weird in the way that you can feel so passionate about something it feels like it will, or could, never slip away. But then it does. It's like you know it's going to happen, yet you do anything in your power to avoid it. It's the least of your worries. Until it occurs. Why don't we prepare for it? Is it because while we're sitting there preparing for the change, we're wasting away the time we have to enjoy it before its gone forever and something new arrives. Or maybe we just can't prepare for it, period. It just happens. Its one of those things we have no control over. We just accept it. I wonder if we can ever get that old habit or that "something" back after the change. It would most definitely be a change to go back to the old habit or that "something". Would it not?

"Summer, I miss you!!"

Have you ever been so frustrated you could tweeze out every hair on your head? Well, I am right now! I am stuck at home on a Saturday night doing about four hours worth of homework when I could be out catching up with old friends. I mean, it is only the beginning of the school year and I already have more homework than I did throughout the entire year last year! Alright..maybe not but, I haven't seen these friends all summer and just about every one of them are hanging out tonight, with out me. Oh! can't forget my dearest Abby over here. I'm making her sit here with me because I'm such a great friend. Well actually she invited me over to work on "homework", then once something better comes along (hanging out with long lost friends) she decides, "Screw homework, I want to go have some fun!!" I mean..what? We only went to the football game last night and a bonfire afterwards. How much fun can you fit into one weekend? I don't know but, I would surely love to find out! If only teachers thought about seven period classes rather than just their own freaking course! Okay yeah.. homework three times a week, i could deal with that but, not EVERY day!! Weekends are my only chance to get out and socialize anymore!