lack of like.

I don't feel wanted, or welcome. I walk in early morning. The smell gets to me first and i finally realize where i am and what i have to do. drag. I walk down the hall. The first person i see i give a nice warm smile. do they smile back? no..they look at me like a complete idiot.-- has this world forgotten manners? or am i really an idiot? --next person walks by. same thing. what? where am i? third person. finally i think..just maybe a warm gesture even. YES! i polite smirk. whoo. okay this day might not be so bad after all.
you've got to be kidding me.
this place makes me feel lost.
is this really what work is all about?
feeling awkward and confused.
if so, i never want to work again in my life.
are there people in this world that actually like their job?
there's got to be!
this just isn't for me.
the environment here sucks!
i need to get out of here.!
help.

Enough of You

I don't know how to take it. You feel inferior to me for no reason. Just be yourself. Enough with the insecurities. If I can't accept who you truly are then move on. I'm not worth your energy. Just stop trying and be yourself. I cannot say it enough.

People who don't like who you are are not worth your time!!

Why do we try to be someone we are not? To be loved? Accepted?

Find people who fall in love with the you you are. I know I have. A few at least.

You wonder why we never hang out? I never tell you anything?
Its because you are all backstabbers.
everyone is.
so i've confided to only those who i trust.
i've stopped trusting you.
once i told you something.
you laughed at me.
that isn't someone i feel comfortable sharing my memories and stories with.
so bye bye
why do i need you?
stop being angry about it.
you are so annoying.

smigle and dorkux

I can't wait to see what happens next. life is finally exciting and up and down. do i want to commit to the same ol' again? hmm..change is good. i think but routine is better. right? i would love to get those things i long for back and feel good and satisfied! well don't we all..life is a mystery and im not about to figure it out. im just going to play it by ear. we'll see what happens. i trust him. for the first time in a long time im going to trust him. there's a plan.

my dear abby

so theres this girl who means the world to me.

we've been through so much together and stuck by each other through it all.

she makes me feel safe and no one can ever mean as much to me as she does.

i'm constantly amazed by her intellegence and understanding of the world.

i have learned so much from her and grown so much as a person just from talking with her.

we have these brilliant talks about everything and they always make me think about new things and ideas and help me express myself better.

this girl is amazingly gorgeous and the way i see her is more beautiful than anyone i've ever seen in my life and she radiates because her unique amazing personality shines through.

as i spend more and more time with her i realize how lucky i am to have this amazing connection with anyone and i thank god for her everyday.

there are so many more things i could say about her but its getting a bit too corny for me so i'll stop.

but the point is this girl is simply amazing.

guess who that girl is?

yep.

its you :D:D:D:D:D:D:

i fucking love you ariel jordan christensen.

♥ :D:D:D:D

abigail, i love you so much :)